I'm feeling pushed again

I tried to be perfect

But nothing was worth it,
I don't believe it makes me real.
I thought it'd be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know,
Just to see if they would it show,
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.